today I’ve done nothing but not think about it at all…..

and in not thinking i’ve found alot about myself …..

i’ve notice that I’m really close to being anger at some of the dumbest thing, or about thing ppl do that don’t really effect me, or if they do i say whateva it wasn’t mean to be so I’m over it!…..

like i’ve been letting one of the closet relationships i have drift so far gone that even i lost hope for fight for it that even now it’s going to take so much to keep it…………….

and in keeping i need to remember that it’s more then worth it you know?…….

cause i would be choosing to letting go off history but also family ………………

in times like these i need to know and remember where to whom i belong and that right here in catalyst cause it was my GOD has planted me to grow!……. there pretty much only a few hrs left to go so GOD PLEASE BE WITH ME …….

i dont was to just get over it so when other need i can be there for them but lose me self…..

but i want to process, except, heal, confront, and be open, feel every emotion and not be controlled…. but most off all remember that my plans are so little compared to HIS you know…….

today i’m ok because i have to be, it doesn’t just effect me but everyone i love!

far as tomorrow…well i just yet until i’m there….

cArR!e

i need to come so close in these next few weeks that i am consumed with HIM ……………i want my sweat to have HIM in it…………… today is a better day …….i’m still at peace and happy at this moment ……. but the next will change so i hope i’m ready for it……….

everything that i know is about to change and the question is what am i going to do with the opportunity that is given to me?

” we are giving trial not to ask our GOD where he is at, and what is he going to do…….but you ask our character”

i hope that charater is of my DAD since I AM MY BELOVES…….AND HE IS MINE!…….

i love you GOD, but right now i’m so mad and confuse i dont know how to talk to you the same as yesterday so forgive me and stay with me alittle longer!